Partnering up + I mean it

OK two things. One: I’ve noticed that I feel a lot better, natural and relaxed, when I have a partner. Which is logical. I don’t need to worry about someone loving me, getting laid… even though of course there is maintenance and energy to invest into it. But with that investment comes huge peace of mind when meeting other people, in fact it’s the exact peace of mind that you need to be successful. This is ‘the scent’ that guys with girlfriends have (or the needy, scared smell they don’t have). You could actually say it’s a smell, as nervous people have a different sweat that isn’t consciously perceived but that works through in the unconscious. Like dogs smell when you’re scared.

Of course there is the issue of whether or not to cheat on your girlfriend with all this fantastic peace of mind and natural wit. I leave it to you to figure out how you want to deal with that conundrum: having super powers that you can’t morally use, or not having them and having to pretend you do (like faking experience to get a job), or finding ways to resource yourself continually, by yourself. I’ve been single for a year now and I can say that I’m a lot better than before at feeling good about myself being single – thank god for my friends, my work situation, my family, my hobbies, my plans and goals… – but even with all that stuff, it’s still not the same (to me at least) as having that one special girlfriend that’ll tell you daily how great you are and prove it to you between the sheets – ain’t no beating Mother Nature’s traditional way of getting by in life and yes, this means I’m still ego dependent and not a completely independent being that lives in the NOW and can see beyond form-constraints. Show me anyone halfway cool who isn’t; really.

Another thing that I want to give to you, just a little useful thing that I’ve noticed myself doing. I didn’t used to do this, but I guess somewhere along the way with the whole inner game thing and not being reactive, it kind of clicked into place and felt good. So here goes. When I’m talking to someone, I really mean anything I say. Even if I’m talking the biggest bullshit like the temperature of the pool or the prices of gas, I’m not saying shit just to make conversation. I’m talking about some deep shit here yow! Check the difference: I’m not waiting for any validation from anyone. I’m not waiting to see how they’ll react. In fact, a lot of times when I’m talking shit people will give me this look like ‘is he for real or is he kidding me with this bullshit?’ upon which I’ll look them dead pan in the eye and either just look at them in silence, or launch deeper into the subject thereby convincing them that yes, this guy is for real and yes, there is actually a reason I’m saying all this. Funny and beautiful thing is, any drivel that pops into your head always has some reason of being there – call it divine inspiration, flow of consciousness… another thing about it is that it’s always connected to some deeper source, motivation or insight within you. Trick is to discover what that is – and that is how to take a conversation deeper in, like, seconds! without even having to try. Thank the Lord for the path of least resistance…

Like the temperature of the pool. It might be a bit cold, which reminds me that I had a throatache last week and I had to stay indoors for two days. How sucky is that? I hate being sick, I’m a terrible sick person, I get all grumpy and self-pitying… I never used to be sick before. I wonder if it’s my lifestyle – I don’t cook enough anymore and I go out too much – or just the general environment that’s getting dirtier… What do YOU think?

And then there’s this hilarious blog Nouvelle discovered: gotta love an intelligent asshole on a rampage :p