You may have heard of Ciaran, from RSD. He left as he found a darkness at the core of becoming a seducer that contradicts our motives for doing it: to become happier, more complete being. Read his farewell post and the comments, as well as his new blog.
I’m going to think about this one for a while. But I’m beginning to think it’s true. It started with being ashamed to tell my mother, to not being able to be honest about it to girls, to seeing the discomfort on my friends’ faces when I tried to explain, to forgetting about my mates as I fired up a club, to feeling empty as hell after a weekend of great parties and having sex. Is this what it’s all about? When do I see my ex-girlfriend and see her look at me with awe and understand why I broke up with her? As it stands, I feel more distanced from that than ever. Not that I’ll kill myself because it’s still fun to do this and there’s still gratification out there, but where does it stop? What am I gaining? Am I becoming richer, or seeping off my self-worth?
To be continued.
1 response so far ↓
Bebo // November 15, 2008 at 2:24 am |
Pr, i so understand. Ciaran inspired me so much in his direct methods of teaching pua. He unlike many others have seen what truly is suppose to fulfill what you need in life.
And like Mr Tolle said, “Its already inside you.”
Peace man, and hope all goes well.
One love.